Today I did not work. I had one thing on the agenda that took approximately an hour, factoring in driving time. I got some laundry done and watched a television show. The truth of the matter is, I have this itching need for something that I just can’t satisfy.

I had a cup of coffee, ate a candy bar, cleaned my room, worked on graphics for my quotable life, sang improv to the rabbit I am babysitting – nothing prevailed. I even wandered around Wal-Mart with Rebekah. The clock nears midnight as I type and this feeling still lingers.

So I thought about it. There are certain people who have shaped me into the person I am simply by being in my life at my times of weakness and vulnerability. They picked me up – play doh – and molded me. Who I am is not a direct reflection of the mold, but more or less the result of breaking out and learning lessons. I keep flashing back to those moments.

Right now my life is in a limbo of change. I just want to grab onto something so familiar and not let go. I need an old friend to reminisce with. I want to find somebody I have been out of contact with. But the thing is, nobody is dying and life is going on. Nobody has time to stop for me. Everyone is out living life while I sit here in a tiny town and type my thoughts out to maybe one person. Oh, hello and thank you for reading this kind sir. Er, ma’am? I don’t know. I could just use a friend, somebody who will talk about the good old times with me instead of complaining about everything going on right now. Something simple.

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